Being a new mother again after almost 10 years is an experience of mixed emotions. I thought I was only gifted to raise two undeniably good kids but to my surprise, another boy came out of my tummy through a third c-section operation. Now, I found myself with a bib on my right hand and a feeding bottle on my left. I realized that I am no longer a working mother but a "mom 24/7". It's not an easy job. It's challenging, very demanding and requires full attention, much effort and most of all... time consuming. I am not a first-time mom but it's my first time to be a full time mom.
Yes, I am organized and detail-oriented. Maybe those are good traits I got from my mother but doing domestic chores simultaneously is somehow difficult and getting things done faster is likewise. Each passing day is a one-woman-show except for weekends and during my hubby's day off.
Our house as my workplace now is much simpler to manage than to supervise a group of people with diversity of characters. The hard part is: I work alone with no one to turn to. What's cooking in the kitchen is hotter than an argument over the target sales for the month. Washing the dishes... cleaning the house... preparing the kids for school... aside from taking care of my baby and providing his everyday necessities form part of my routine 24 hours, seven days a week. I no longer prepare regular reports but I have to know the next menu to be served the following day.
Then I question myself: why does Bebeth, my housemaid for almost 5 years has to leave me just when I needed her most? I know, she has to because she too is expecting her first child come December. I can hardly find another Bebeth whom I considered a family.
No career is more stressful than being a full time mom but it's a rewarding experience. It may not require a diploma but the skills and expertise that a mother holds are much more honorable.
I am getting used to this new job. I know that I may not be the best mom but I will do my best to become one.